*insert Kelso style gasp of shock*

I was totally burned by a mod today. I clicked to join the xfiles live journal account that is spotlighted today and they totally denied me. Why? Because i haven't personally written in my own journal since Jan. That's my business!

I wasn't impressed. I didn't even bother comenting, i felt totally flicked off. I mean after my last account kept getting hacked into i decided when opening this account i wouldn't write in it as much and just use it to keep read about others (esp keeping up to date with 'twilight_film' & 'dean_jo'. I thought it was totally rude. I mean shouldn't it be my business, since it's my account, how much i write in it? I already havea diary that i personally write in, plus a facebook account, plus a myspace account -- dude i totally don't have time to type my personal life in my journal here.

I post on dean_jo often enough - why should i be judged on how much i write about myself? ::Shrugs:: Ok, now i've got that off my chest. I've prob defeated the whole point of writing this since i'm complaining about writin in it. LOL.

Oh well, their community, their rules i guess.... still.... was a bit rude the way they worded it. Never mind.

Nicky

Well it's Jan again.

Gawd last year went fast - no complaints though. 2007 was a shit-house year. Not my best. A lot of people I know even complain what a shocker it was. But now my bad cycle is over. According to the star signs, a pyschic and three tarot card readings I am in for a good year. The bad, stubborn, no resolution 3 year cycle is done! Yeeeehhhhaaaaaa!

So far though, it's been very, very quiet. The business is on the verge of being sold so i'm out and hitting the cyber pavement looking for a new job. There isn't that much out there. I lie, there isn't much unless you are a chef, builder or mechanic. Anything writting and photography is bone dry. Friggin Uni students. That's why no one is hiring yet. All the people i've applied to have said 'Give it a few weeks, when we know what the uni students schedule is than we'll hire'. But i need a job now! Stupid students. ::glares::

Doing my very, very best to put all my energies into being positive. It's hard though, money is getting tight, I'm staying home alot (ahhhhhh!) and all I can say is thank God for the internet and fanfic. I've watched 'The Secret' and i'm trying to be pumped. Yeah that's right universe - i'm ready for some good times.... hello???.... universe???? ::voices echoes:: universe? Dammit!

Oops now i'm being kicked out of the office. Damn.

Later.

Nicky

Hi Everyone,

Due to the drought in Jo/Dean fic at the moment, i've decided to post the start of a long fic I've been working on. It's not complete yet, so please be patient with me. :o) Okay lets get this show on the road...

TITLE: Premonition
Author: Nicky (was previously princess_gicky)
Rating: PG
Chapter: One
Spoilers: Set after Season 2 finale (but the story is set as if season 3 hasn't started yet!)
Feedback: Always appreciated! (and used as motivation to write faster)

( Chapter One )

Well it seems as if the word just keeps on turning. I got an invite in my inbox today to Ruth's engagement party. Was it really only a year ago i was planning my own wedding. Sometimes I wonder - i know i did the right thing walking away from that marriage. But sometimes... sometimes i worry that, that was it. You know? That was my one chance and i threw it away. Maybe i wont get a second chance at love. Was it even love in the first place? It felt like it. But there was no burning passion - no 'can't live without you'. There was intense like - but i never found myself going 'Yup this is love' or if i did i can't remember it anymore.

I miss having someone in my life. I miss learning about them and having someone to go out with and nights in bed etc.

I hate being gloomy and woah is me. He does that enough for the two of us. I just - i need to busy myself. I'm talking to this guy on msn at the moment but i doubt anything will come of it. THe one person who took my fancy never loved me and never wanted anything more than a screw. It tears me up sometimes - you know? Maybe i deserved it because of throwing away my ex?

::shrugs:: well here is to a new year! here is to open minds, travel and career oppurtunities... and if i could just find some love in between all that i think i might be happy. :p

Love

Nix

Well that's it... Christmas is tomorrow.

After a rocky start yesterday, I found out at the last minute that my mom and I had bought the same present for Jacob, all is well. Dad has been unsually grumpy and I myself have been a bit depressed. More sooky really. I can't explain it. I had a bit of a cry yesterday - and mum thinking she knew best kept telling me to 'get over it'. Didn't she understand that i just needed to let it all out now so i felt better later?

Oh well what can you do?

I'm so ready for holidays.

-Nicky

Well... so far, so good. A new journal. A new Feel. A new start. With 2007 fast approaching I felt it was time for a change. If a new year is coming then a new Nix is on the way. I have dozens of other sites and myspaces - but done that is just for me. None that is a diary just for me write in. I may add people and groups as I go. But i've started this one with the intention that it is a dairy just for me. Somewhere i can let all my thoughts and ideas out without any judgement.

-- I can always change my mind later right?

Well then new diary, this is my first entry. So far... so good.

-Nix